MAKE IT COUNT

            Yesterday i went to a meeting with family and i learnt quite a lot actually,at first i thought family meetings are such a bore and i pictured myself dozing of the first 10-30 min of the meeting....but to my surprise,i was the most attentive one in the room(though someone did doze off,the exact timing i thought i would lol)
          In the whole meeting,there is one phrase that was said that i cannot get off my mind "IT IS NOT HOW MUCH MONEY YOU MAKE,BUT HOW MUCH MONEY YOU KEEP." this is all that has been going though my mind since yesterday evening.Coming to think of it then i think i started making good decisions only last year.This is quite disturbing,if i started making worthy decisions at 23,what if i never had started...this means by now i would still be wasting my life away,making money and using all of it in the same month.I call this hand-to-mouth style of living.I realized yesterday that,that would have been the end of me,an Esteem death sentence for me,Personality cuicide mission.I would never like to imagine myself at 35,without a house of my own,investments that i would be proud of making or even having kids without achieving certain set goals i made in life.I think this would kill me literally,i would have so much guilt.
            I was that weird kid in high school who always talked about making it in life,and not just making it...but making it BIG!!!other girls would look at me in a funny way and some would think it was just big talk and nothing more,but my close friends knew i was that one girl who would even sell her own kidney just to make money.
       I now think that quote was meant just for me.It is not about how i started working at just 19 when all my age mates were busy in school,its not about how much money i have been making for all those years neither is it how old i was or i am.Thing is how much money have i kept and where is that one thing i can show that is mine right now,something to show for all the years i was working tirelessly,for all the tears and sweat......NOTHING!!
        Its time for change.Its not how big the car you drive is,or to make it worse the outstanding loan you have for that big car.Is the money you are making enough to feed your next generation?that is the question.Will your next generation have somewhere to call home or is it just going to be renting houses for generations to come.Is that not tiring that you may one day look back at the age of 65 and realize you have no place to call home?This is just food for thought,so you better make your life count,your hard work should count and not just for now but for years to come.If you ask me,saving money in the bank is as good as using it all in a month since you start withdrawing in small quantities and at the end you end up using it all for something that you had not planned for(that's my experience)i would rather put every coin to use right now,investing in something no matter how small it is.I refuse to live hand to mouth.More sacrifices right now for more in the future is worth it.